When your trust is without borders

The ambulance crew was fantastic. My driver was super sarcastic and funny, and the young man that rode with me in the back was very friendly. I quickly learned he was from Germany and had only been here several years. We had a nice, light conversation on the way there.

Once I reached my destination, I was carted off to “acute care”.

I was put into a room with another gentleman and left to wait until I was issued a CT scan. After getting an IV and having my vitals taken, I once again was left alone with wandering thoughts. You can only imagine what was going through my head.

Finally, it was my turn to go downstairs to get my body scanned. They asked me if I needed to be sedated or was claustrophobic; I declined. Though I knew what to except, it still caught me by surprise. I was harnessed in and placed in a brace that went up to my forehead. I was then told to be as still as possible for an hour while they completed the scan. Good thing I am not very claustrophobic because it seemed like forever, and the intense whooshing sound was getting to me. I had headphones in and was listening to music (Switchfoot), but the noise over powered that. What a long hour!

While I was listening to that Pandora station, Hillsong’s “Oceans” came over the air. I was scared I was going to mess up the scan because I was just shaking with tears. This song has always made me emotional, and I was especially emotional in that moment, as I truly was to the point where my trust was without borders

Truly, only God knew what was happening in those moments of uncertainty, and I had to put all my trust in Him to keep from sinking.